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  Something Blue

  A Novel

  Ann Hood

  For Deb

  Contents

  The point of no return

  Backstage

  Something blue

  Temps

  Whispers

  Foreign bodies

  Secret ingredients

  Happy ribbons

  Fires

  Love on the doorstep

  Something borrowed

  Nawn PAR-lo-ee-tah-lee-AH-no

  What do you want to be when you grow up?

  Best friends 4 ever

  One wheelbarrow

  Something new

  On

  Six snowflakes

  Truth or dare

  Bedford and barrow

  Snugglys

  Something old

  Aliens and other invasions

  Good morning, America!

  Zing

  Swimming pools, movie stars

  Whirlwind weekends

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  The point of no return

  JASPER BELIEVES THAT EATING turkey cures jet lag. So every time Lucy returns from a Whirlwind Weekend, she finds him in her Greenwich Village kitchen, basting or stuffing a fourteen pounder. Jasper can cure anything. Jet lag, sore feet, tension headaches. Lately, Lucy has begun to wonder if the smell of turkey roasting will make her cry someday soon, the way in high school, after she’d broken up with her boyfriend, she had to avoid hot fudge sundaes and later, when she’d had her heart broken in college, songs by the Eagles made her weep.

  Whirlwind Weekends are four-day trips—two of those spent traveling—to European cities. They are for people who don’t have a lot of money to spend. They stay in two-star hotels, eat prearranged meals, and Lucy talks them through every block, every step of the city. She advises them on souvenirs, she runs to their room to explain what a bidet is for, she orders for them if she has to. Most of the groups are from the midwest. Most have never been to Europe before.

  This weekend she has been to London, the easiest Whirlwind trip. A short flight, standard sights, and everyone knows the language. The biggest problem on London weekends is crossing the street. Lucy always has to shout, “Look right!” before they cross. Other tour guides have had members of their groups hit by cars or double-decker buses, or scared by close calls with speeding ambulances and taxis. Whirlwind travelers are not used to foreign things. They’re used to cars driving on the right, shopping malls, weak coffee with Equal and skim milk. One scare can ruin their entire weekend.

  When Lucy gets off the elevator she can smell the turkey. She can smell oranges too. Jasper has made his Grand Marnier-apricot stuffing. Her favorite. At that instant, she feels her heart lurch ever so slightly. She walks more quickly down the long hallway, her suitcase bumping along behind her, across the gray and black tweed carpeting that lines the halls.

  For three years now, Lucy has gotten off this elevator, her eyes dry and red from jet air, and raced down this hallway to Jasper. For three years her heart has lurched like this at the thought of him in there, waiting with dinner and wine, flowers and remedies. Lucy is comforted by the feeling in her chest. Perhaps, she thinks, things are all right after all. She shifts the duty-free bag to her other hand, the bottles of Beefeater and Baileys clinking together, and searches her Whirlwind Weekends coat pocket for her keys.

  But Jasper has heard her approaching and opens the door for her. He is smiling. He’s wearing an apron she bought him as a gift once, a white butcher-style one with a Far Side cartoon of escaping turkeys on the front.

  “’ello, mate,” Jasper says in a near-perfect Cockney accent. Jasper is good with accents. He takes her suitcase, her duty-free bag.

  “Hi,” Lucy says. She stands on tiptoe to kiss him.

  “How was it?” he asks her.

  He has set the table. Blue candles, yellow tulips, the turkey cooling on a platter surrounded by baby vegetables.

  Lucy’s dirty-blond hair, cut into layers, has started to fall free of the ponytail she wears for work so she removes the 1950s scarf decorated with suitcases and 707s and lets it fall free. Sometimes Jasper tells her that her hair is like lemon meringue pie, all peaks and dips down to her shoulders. He tells her that if she were blonder, she’d look like the perfect dizzy blonde, all loose hair and round blue eyes. That, she reminds him, is not a compliment.

  Lucy kicks off her shoes, surveys the apartment. The good feeling has passed, replaced by that other, new one. The one that makes her want to close her eyes and cry. The one that feels like doom.

  “No one hit by a bus?” Jasper asks her.

  She shakes her head.

  “The changing of the guard?” he says.

  “Yes.”

  “Cats?”

  Lucy sighs. “I’ve seen Cats twenty-two times,” she says, slipping out of her coat. “Do you think that’s a record?”

  Jasper is unpacking the duty-free bag, lining up the goodies she’s brought home on the kitchen counter like an army.

  “I put in another request for a change of plays,” she says. She eats one of the tiny carrots, a new potato.

  “Phantom of the Opera?” Jasper says. Under his breath he adds, “More garbage.”

  Lucy doesn’t answer him. She realizes he has put on classical music for her. She tries to identify the piece, but can’t. She only knows it’s something dark and gloomy.

  “You’re sighing,” he tells her. “Do you know that you’re sighing?”

  She shrugs. “The music,” she says.

  Jasper looks at her, puzzled. “I thought—”

  “No,” she says quickly. “It’s nice. Really.”

  He moves toward her, takes her in his arms. “What?” he whispers. “What hurts?”

  Jasper is so tall that standing like this Lucy’s head rests somewhere between his chest and stomach. If she listens hard enough, she can hear the steady thumping of his heart. But tonight she hears nothing beneath the layers of apron and sweater and shirt, beneath the sad music.

  “I can fix it,” he is saying.

  Lucy’s hand goes to her own chest, rests there lightly, sandwiched between them. She can feel her own heartbeat, aching against her ribs.

  Jasper says, “I can. I can fix anything.”

  Lucy met Jasper on a flight from London to New York three years ago. Her tour group sat huddled together in the center section of the Lockheed 1011, exhausted from their long weekend away from Ohio. A few of the men, dressed in new English riding caps from Harrods, were drunk on ale, talking loudly about England as if they’d just spent months there instead of a few hurried days.

  On the flights back, Lucy always got a seat for herself far from the group. They only had questions about customs by then, and that could wait. She’d help them fill out their forms, remind them of their flight numbers, the amount of merchandise allowed in duty-free. But until then she could curl up alone and relax for the first time since she’d met them at JFK the Thursday evening before. Then they’d been a noisy group, excited and slightly confused by the hectic atmosphere and size of Kennedy Airport. They’d told her horror stories about their trip so far, stories that more seasoned travelers would not have to tell. “Hank tried to tip the stewardess,” they’d say, pointing at Hank. “They made me check my suitcase!” they’d tell her. Or, “We thought we’d miss our plane because we had to circle so long here.”

  But on the way back, their cameras put away, their carry-on luggage filled with discounted W
edgwood and Waterford items, they slept. Lucy’s seat was in the very last row. All she could see of her group were the tops of their heads. And the seat beside her was empty. She lifted her armrest, fluffed two of the small red airplane pillows, and closed her eyes.

  “Sorry,” a man’s voice said.

  She opened her eyes, looked up and up into a face that made her shiver. A chiseled and perfect face, topped with reddish brown hair. The face smiled a smile of white even teeth. Those teeth should be in a television commercial, she thought as she frowned at the man.

  “You can sit in any empty seat,” she told him. She sat up and looked around.

  “Sorry,” he said again. “This is the only one left.”

  Lucy stood up, searching for another seat for this man, so she could stretch out, so she could be alone for a few hours. Two women from her group saw her and waved. Their carefully sprayed and teased hair was flat now, after four days away in the London mist and drizzle. Lucy waved back and sat down quickly, before more of them spotted her.

  “Friends of yours?” the man asked her.

  “Sort of,” she said. She rearranged her things and he settled in beside her. Keep those teeth to yourself, she thought. She would bury her head in a book. She would pretend he wasn’t even there.

  But he beat her to it. He’d already started on the crossword puzzle in the International Herald Tribune. It was the same one she’d done in the Times the day she’d left New York. She glanced at it, and saw that he was putting in a lot of wrong answers. In ink.

  She tried to ignore his mistakes, but they were driving her crazy. He’d put MAMA instead of NANA for “Zola novel.” EXAM instead of QUIZ for “surprise test.” And now he put FILMORE for the clue “sixteenth U.S. president.”

  “He was the thirteenth president,” Lucy said. She tapped on his newspaper. “And Fillmore has two l’s.”

  “I’m awful at these,” he said.

  “Lincoln,” she told him, and pretended to start to read her book again.

  From the corner of her eye she saw he was flashing that smile. “Jasper Shaw,” he said.

  “No,” Lucy said. She tapped on his newspaper again. “Lincoln is the answer. The sixteenth president was Abraham Lincoln.”

  “Oh,” he said. “Right.”

  “And Zola wrote Nana.” She looked away again.

  “I don’t want to give you the wrong idea,” he began.

  “You haven’t.”

  “I’ve been traveling for days. From Tokyo. Maybe when I eat some turkey my mind will clear.”

  “Probably,” Lucy said. It was difficult to ignore him. And not just because he was so perfect looking, like a sculpture. But he was also so sincere. She almost expected him to say things like golly or gosh.

  “Plus,” he said, “it’s hard for me to get comfortable on planes.” He pointed toward his legs, all bent like pretzels to fit between the seats.

  Lucy sighed. She looked right at him.

  “You’re really pretty,” he said, and blushed slightly.

  “Lucy,” she told him.

  “Good,” he said.

  She and Jasper shared the scones she’d bought that morning. He told her he was a dancer who had trouble getting jobs because he was so tall.

  “What about Tommy Tune?” she asked him. “He’s tall.”

  Jasper shook his head. “He’s an exception.”

  “Well,” she said, “are you any good?”

  He nodded.

  “Then something will work out,” she told him.

  His face brightened. “I was just in the Japanese tour of A Chorus Line. I played the guy who imitates his sister at ballet class. You know the one?”

  “Yes.”

  “That was me,” Jasper said. “It was so great to be working. For a while I was in the Nebraska State Ballet. But I want to really make it. So I turned thirty last month and I decided it was time. I packed up, moved to New York, and got the Japan thing. It was only for a month but I got it right away and I think that’s a good sign.”

  “Definitely,” Lucy said. “Some people wait years for something like that.”

  “My father hates that I’m a dancer. He thinks I should have been a basketball player instead.”

  They fell silent then, the sort of warm, awkward silence that comes during a first date that’s going well. Lucy searched for something to say. She could talk to him about ballet. About her efforts to get free-lance illustration work. About Whirlwind Weekends.

  Before she could decide, the plane shook and there was a loud bang. Someone from her group screamed and the seat belt sign flashed on.

  Jasper took her hand and held on, hard. She found herself thinking that it would be all right to fall from the sky with this man. To drop into the ocean with him. She felt calm, certain.

  “I think we blew an engine,” he told her softly.

  “That’s fine,” she said.

  He started to let go of her hand, but she wouldn’t let him.

  “That’s fine,” she said again.

  The pilot’s voice filled the plane, strong and sure. “Well, folks,” he said, “it looks like we lost our number three engine.”

  Jasper leaned over and kissed her, quickly, on the lips. “Are you always such a wise guy?” he asked her. “I mean, do you know all the presidents, in order? All the state capitals? Things like that?”

  “I’m afraid so,” Lucy said.

  The pilot said, “We can fly just fine without it. It just slows us down a bit. So it’ll take us a little longer to get to New York.”

  “Good,” Jasper whispered. “I still need to know who you went to your prom with. Your favorite color. Your middle name. All those important things.”

  “Now if we were closer to London, we might turn back and get this fixed up,” the pilot said, his accent flat and midwestern.

  Lucy whispered, “No one. Blue. Margaret.”

  “No one? I can’t believe that.”

  “You see,” the pilot said, “there’s a halfway mark between the U.S. and Europe where it’s equidistant from both places. So it makes no sense to turn around. And that’s right where we are now. The point of no return.”

  Lucy has changed out of her navy blue polyester-blend Whirlwind Weekends uniform and put on Jasper’s robe. He hates it. His parents sent it to him for his birthday. It’s a plush black one, with his initials on the front in a curly, darker black scroll. The robe smells like Lucy’s perfume.

  They are sitting on the couch, drinking glasses of the Baileys she’s brought from London. Slowly, Jasper takes each of her toes, one by one, in his hands, and tugs on them until they crack. This, he says, is a cure for sore feet and headaches. Lucy has both.

  “Tell me about your trip,” he says, pulling on her toes.

  She shrugs. What is there to tell him? she thinks. Every Whirlwind Weekend is exactly the same. In London they go for tea, they shop at Harrods, they see Cats. They take a sightseeing tour of the city on a double-decker bus and eat at a British pub. There is an optional tour of the Tower of London. They eat at a place called Medieval Manor, an old castle where jesters and musicians perform for them and customers have to eat with their hands. On the final night there is a sunset boat ride on the Thames, with dinner and dancing.

  “What about your weekend?” Lucy asks him.

  Jasper is a bartender at a place in SoHo called the Blue Painted Door. The restaurant has no real name, but the front door is painted a day-glo blue, so people call it the Blue Painted Door. Lately, it’s on every magazine’s HotSpot list, and is crowded with models and movie stars. Before he worked there, Jasper worked at a different hot restaurant called Betty’s Bayou. When Betty’s Bayou stopped being hot, Jasper started to make fifty dollars a week. Now he makes that in a good hour.

  “The place,” he is saying through gritted teeth, “is a madhouse. The customers are assholes. And the food stinks.”

  “I thought the food was good,” Lucy says. She pulls her feet away from him, and cur
ls her legs up under her.

  “Angel hair pasta with sun-dried tomato pesto and blackened shrimp,” he says. “Does that even make sense? I thought pesto meant made with basil. So how can it be made with sun-dried tomatoes?”

  Lucy sighs. “I don’t know,” she says. She waits before she asks the next question. She has to prepare herself first for his reaction. She takes a breath. “Any auditions or anything while I was gone?” she says, pretending to study the new New Yorker’s cover.

  “Give me a break,” he tells her. “I work until five in the morning, making cappuccino for their seven-dollar desserts. When am I supposed to go to an audition? When am I supposed to even dance? A dancer has to practice every day.”

  Lucy tosses the magazine onto the coffee table. “So make time,” she says. This litany has become as routine, as dull to her as the Whirlwind Weekend schedules.

  “You know I take class on Mondays and Tuesdays.”

  “But that’s not every day,” she says. She gets up and walks over to her drafting table. Illustrating is her passion. Her newest project is the drawings for a book called My Dolly. First she must design the doll itself. It can’t look like Raggedy Ann. It can’t look like a Cabbage Patch doll. “It has to be something new. Fresh,” the editor, Ashley Hayes, told her. She had whispered to Lucy over the phone. “If you do it right, it could be big. We’re trying to sell rights for real My Dollys.” “Well,” Lucy had said, trying not to sound terrified, “nothing like a little pressure.”

  Now, she stares at the blank round face she drew before she left. If she keeps My Dolly bald, it is too Cabbage Patch. But somehow hair is too Raggedy Ann. She has a deadline. Behind her, Jasper is talking about his scheduling problems. He is telling her how his friend Randy got a job in the road show of 42nd Street. Jasper rattles off Randy’s destinations.

  “Minneapolis,” he says, “Chicago, Saint Louis.”

  Lucy picks up her charcoal pencil and sketches a face on the circle. She makes it a perfect face, despite the roundness. She adds cheekbones, a Roman nose, a smiling mouth with perfect teeth. She gives it ears and reddish brown hair. My Dolly has become Jasper.